Since I got pregnant, with Oscar, in May 2009, I’ve done so much worrying about him. At first I worried about something going wrong with the pregnancy. At our 20 week scan, we were told that his kidneys were dilated, so until the next scan I worried about that (he was fine). Then I worried about something happening in the run up to the birth (what if I slip in the ice or fall down the stairs?!). Then I worried during the actual birth (which was very stressful).
When Oscar was born I then worried about SIDS and something happening to him. When we were weaning I worried about him choking, the list goes on…
Three years after having Oscar I had our twins, again a whole load of worry during pregnancy and beyond…
Recently, I seem to be hearing lots of horrible stories involving things happening to children. It seems like every week there is a story about some freak accident, a child going missing, or you hear of a horrid story of something that’s happened to a friend of a friend’s child. And it makes me worry. A LOT!
I seem to be worrying much more recently. We are so lucky that all of our three children are healthy, but what if this doesn’t continue…? Surely having three, means that the chance of something happening to one of them is higher…? I think we probably all have this thought at some point, but we have to bury it away, or I don’t think we’d ever leave the house.
I’ve always worried when any of my three go in someone else’s car or stay overnight somewhere. My brain goes through all the things that could possibly happen (I have a very active imagination) and then I push the horrible dark thoughts away and try and get on with something else.
I’m hoping I’m not the only one who does this? I wonder if this (often) irrational fear and worry about something happening to our children ever goes away, or whether it’s something that mother nature has installed in us to protect our offspring?
I’d love to hear your thoughts?
I appreciate this is a bit of a random post, but is something I just needed to get off my chest!!